Out of Obesity, Chapter 3

We are snowed in here in this little corner of the world. This part of North Carolina is closed due to winter. I can’t get out of my driveway because of the snow, and I love it.  I have friends and loved ones who must travel regardless of, and even because of the weather, so I am helping keep them safe by staying off the roads.

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Snowfall in January 2018 ~ Looking East and loving it!

This beautiful scene will be short-lived, the melting began yesterday and should continue  for the next few days as well, but in the meantime, I’m enjoying this wonderful southern snowfall, and reflecting on this journey of mine.

There is this thing called patience,  I looked it up.  Merriam Webster simply defines it as “the act of being patient”.  Then I looked up “patient” and found the fourth definition:  steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity”.   Well, there it is. For me, this journey out of obesity is getting difficult and is being met with opposition from nobody other than myself.  My last post on this journey was 22 days ago; at that time I had lost 9 pounds, and was officially out of the obese BMI range into Overweight.

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I’m using the “Big Day Lite” app to keep track of the time on this, now in progress, journey. 

Oh yeah, I was happy with myself.  I was on the downhill slide and feeling quite smug.  Right about then I imagine this is what happened:

My body:  “Hey, wait a second, what is she up to?  She can’t take the fat away…the fat is so cushy, comfy, snuggly.  The fat is gooooood!!  Fat!! Don’t Go!!”   (Or something along those lines.)

And so, the fat decided it had a pretty good gig here in this body, so it decided to stick around.  For 21 days my weight stayed within the 9-10 pounds lost range.

Frustrating?  Yep.  Aggravating? Yep.  Enough to toss in the towel and settle with being overweight?  Nope.

This change, this journey, was never about quick weight loss, although I was quite happy with those initial results. Habits take time to change. Bodies take time to adjust to those changes.  And, frankly, not becoming discouraged and gaining any back during those 3 weeks that seemed like a stall, is quite a success in itself.

Here one month into this journey, the refined or added sugar aspect is fading from the central focus. It has been dealt with and given the proper attention, and no longer drives my appetite.  Now the focus shifts into other aspects of healthier foods, hopefully more physical movement throughout the days, and patience.  And I have renewed hope, because here, one month into this journey, there is finally another change.  Here, on day 31 I have a weight loss of 11 pounds total, and even as much as my body loves that security blanket of fat, my internal organs and my spine are, quite literally, relieved.

I also have this reminder that even though I may not always use it, and others may not always see it (I should work on that too) I do have that wonderful virtue, that gift of the Holy Spirit  that is patience.  It may be difficult, but I can do this, and it will be worth it.

It already is.

This entry is simply to mark my thoughts and progress, and to note that I’m pleasantly surprised I made progress over the recent days.   Productive comments and suggestions are encouraged, others traveling on this journey are welcome to join me.

I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.  Philippians 4:13

 And so it continues……

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Out of Obesity

It has been an amazing few weeks in my corner of this world.  In the coming days Kelly’s Keyboard will be filled with stories of gratitude, some wonderful adventures in junior high youth ministry, family gatherings, and beautiful travels.

But today, there is something else on my mind.  Today I’m realizing how short I actually am.  There were times in my life I could stretch and be recorded at 5′ 1 3/4″, but now it’s closer to 5′ 1 1/2″…..on my tiptoes.  To be fair, I’m fine with being short, I call it fun-sized.  Today, however, I have decided to come to terms with what this short frame is carrying around.

There’s a formula to calculate one’s healthy weight using one’s height and weight to discover one’s current body mass index, the indicator of excess body fat.  There are also countless online calculators to do that automatically, so I found a few of them, and settled on using one I trust from the Mayo Clinic website.

So,with my first-thing-in-the-morning weight, I entered my information.  I didn’t even have time to take a sip of coffee before the results were up on the screen:

 

My BMI is 31.9.  I am obese. What?  No.  I just have a little more sand in this hourglass figure of mine.  Obese?  That can’t be right.

But it is.

Notice that nifty little guide in the shaded grey and orange?

Initially I looked at this and thought, ok, I’m only 1.9 over the limit into the obese category.  I can fix this in a matter of days.

I like to tell myself things like that.

 

Then I started checking the calculator to find out at what weight I would actually be considered not obese, and not overweight.

Here’s how that went:

  • Losing 10 pounds:  BMI is 29.9, overweight.
  • Losing 20 pounds:  BMI is 28, still overweight.
  • Losing 30 pounds:  BMI is 26.1, still overweight.
  • Losing 40 pounds:  BMI is 24.2  Finally!  A weight within the “Normal BMI” range.

A few more calculations and I discovered I would need to either gain 9 inches in height, or lose 36 pounds in excess weight to travel out of obesity, through overweight territory, back into normal body weight range.

I’m not getting any taller, so my course is pretty clear.  Throw on a coat, an extra scarf, wrap up in a blanket and go.  And I’m one of those folks that can wrap up in a blanket and go for a stroll without even spilling my coffee,  I have mad skills when it comes to camouflaging the fluff……..

In all seriousness, though, today,  I have no choice but to come to terms with the fact that this isn’t fluff.  It’s nearly 40 extra pounds that I’m forcing my frame to carry around.  I’m doing this to my joints, my spine, my feet, my kidneys, my heart.

This is not a “vanity” post.  This is an “I know my genetics and I’ve seen first hand how obesity can wreak havoc on one’s health and I can’t believe I’ve allowed myself to get to this point” post. And so, I take a deep breath in acknowledging there is much work to be done. It cannot wait for a new year’s resolution.

This entry is simply this first step. I don’t have a plan yet except to post my thoughts, setbacks and progress on this journey here.  Productive comments and suggestions are encouraged, others traveling on this journey are welcome to join me.

I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.  Philippians 4:13

 And so it begins……

 

 

 

January Moon

Look up.   It is in the darkness of night that the moon and stars become brilliant.  The soft blues and stunning oranges and reds of sunrise and sunsets often make us stop in our tracks, take slower breaths, and marvel at the glory and beauty above us.   But what about the darkness?  Ah ~ that beautiful darkness far away from streetlights and cities where the moon beams bathe the earth in the softest glow.

Tonight a few wispy clouds lingered close to the rising moon, a brief embrace of sorts  before floating away on the breeze.  Westward, stars are more visible – even Mars and Neptune are keeping watch over all that moves tonight – but my focus remains in the eastern sky as the moon slowly makes it’s way higher.

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First Full Moon of 2017

Perhaps in summer there would be owls chatting or whippoorwills calling through trees, but on this night the winds carry a chorus of yips and high barks from coyotes in the surrounding woods.  Somehow that seems appropriate as we welcome once again this “Wolf Moon” of January.            ~ Peace ~

“And at the eventide, again may we give thanks unto Thee, through Jesus Christ our Lord”   (Gelasian Sacramentary A.D. 494)

 

~ Snow Day ~

It is a beautiful scene here as the snowflakes falling from the deep gray sky dance along the freezing winds, floating and spinning through winter branches before landing softly on an already blanketed landscape.  If winter prayers could be drawn or photographed, I believe they would be images of days like today.

 

Perhaps where you live snow is a usual winter occurrence, but that is not the case here.  Here snow is rare and celebrated.  We stop.  We advise people to stay home while secretly we want to go out and see the white-draped sites around the county.  We go out to play, hike, take pictures and comment on the freezing winds before retreating to the warmth of hot chocolate, coffee, and popcorn inside.  And if we get enough snow….there will be that wonderful creation Snow Cream!

It’s truly lovely, it will stay so for a couple of days as the temperatures remain below freezing.   And I will spend as much time as possible being grateful for the glimpses of quiet stillness and peace ~that different kind of silent beauty that comes only in the winter.

~ I wish you all peace and the perfect snow day  ~